Our Hearts Desire

What is the core of a woman's heart? What are her desires? What did women long for as little girls? What do we still long for as women?



This is where we, as women have to look deep into our hearts. God has set within you a femininity that is powerful and tender, fierce and alluring. And for some reason we have been misunderstood.



When girls move into womanhood, the first response would sooner be humiliation than excitement. I had three older bothers to live up to. I had to either act like them, or serve them. My choice was obvious, I acted like them. So needless to say that when my womanhood popped up from behind the curtain, I was humiliated. My feelings and emotions stayed hidden deep down in my soul. Feeling as though they were wrong and I had to "suck it up." Feelings I still struggle with to this very day.


God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.Gen. 1:27

This is a piece of scripture that has always kept me on my toes. I've always been searching for answers. Wanting to know why God created me. Who I needed to be and why I was so messed up. I know I'm not alone in this roller coaster and that's why I've chosen to share, and enlighten you on God's truth.

...But for Adam, no suitable helper was found. So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. Gen. 2:20-22

Eve was the crescendo. Like a work of art. Creation being built up until the grand finally. "WOMEN." There is not a doubt in my mind that Eve was the crown of creation. The world was not complete until he made his beautiful masterpiece. There must be something significant that was missing that he had to place us into his creation.

Oh, and there was! His desires of his heart are the things he needed us to carry. That was the image God wanted us to bear. Our hearts were made in reflection of God's own heart.

So now you tell me. Is God the romantic type? Was he longing for the Israelites to love him? Does he long for us to pursue him? Is he full of love and kindness? Did he sacrifice everything for us?

Now you tell me what gets your heart pumping? I can assure you that there will be a resemblance.

Ava

This is our new little member of the family.
Ava!

Spring

What brings me joy???
SPRING!
I love to watch my plants (Babies) peek through the ground for the first time.

Clean up the yard from the mess the winter season left behind.
I love to start up the mower for the first time and usually mark it on my calender so I can compare it to the following year. After I've mowed my lawn, It usually takes a couple of day's and it becomes a beautiful gleaming green lawn.
I can finally bring out all my Adirondack chairs and enjoy the warmer evenings outside with my family.
The first bonfire with family or friends is something I like to mark down on the calender as well.
The deer's come out on to my yard to eat the left over acorns.
The rabbits coats turn back to their grayish brown color. Sometimes I even get the chance to see the new baby bunnies hoping around on my yard.
I love to watch the trees bud and eventually pop out their leaves.
The first thunderstorm always gives me goosebumps but brings a sign that spring is really here.

AND TODAY, IN THE POURING RAIN, MY FIRST HUMMING BIRD CAME TO FEED FROM MY FEEDER!!!!!!!!!
This is the most magical time for me. These birds have become my true joy through out the summer.
And for most of you readers, you already know how much I love them so I wont go on and on about them, but They are here! WOOOHOOO!!!

Seeing I'm done "my time of rest," It's time to get back into the blogging world. lol...
Sorry it's been so long.


The big question thats been playing and re-playing in my head has been, "Do you have unforgiveness in your heart?"
HMMMMmmm...
Do I need to think long and hard on this one? No. ((Shamefully))
There were just some issues in my life that I didn't feel needed attention.
God kept bringing these people to my mind. "You need to go see them." "You need to go make everything right or you wont be able to move on."
My argument with God grew and grew, but I was not going to do it. I thought to myself that I could make myself move on and I could do it no matter what God told me. I reassure you, this was all done unconsciously. lol
But then, during one of my classes, I read words that stung like a bee.
GOD WILL NOT REPEAT HIMSELF IF YOU UNDERSTOOD HIM THE FIRST TIME!!!
Who was I arguing with? I understood Him the first time, and now I've been wasting my time arguing with myself. ((if your like me, picturing this in your head makes it pretty funny))
Seeing I didn't want to look so ridiculous, I sucked up my pride and met with the people God lead me to. It seems like when I'm done dealing with one problem, another person pops into my head. So it looks like I'll be pretty busy for the next while.
This has been a very humbling experience, and I feel like I've lost 50 pounds. Woohoo!!! It's amazing what unforgiveness can do to you.
I also read that scientist's studies have shown, they have found that 70% of illnesses and depression come from the thoughts in your mind, anger, unforgiveness, loneliness, and the list goes on and on.
Sounds like we could all find a great health boost by just watching what we are thinking.

Manly Advise

Last night my husband and I were driving my son to his sleep over party and we were discussing what we might do for the evening. We wanted to make it special, take advantage of the fact that we were alone!!! But some day's it's hard to come up with something to do when your just too tired to move, so we were both stumped.
As my husband was himming and haaing my son interrupted him and gave him some manly advise.
REMEMBER, HE'S 10!
"Dad, Why don't you go get a romantic movie and make some popcorn."
We were so stumped by his remark that we didn't know what to say. I think the silence made him think that he had an opportunity to go on.
"Dad, sometimes I sit through moms romantic movie just to practice and get used to what I'll need to do when I have a wife."
ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What do you say to that??? I turned to applaud my son and through the corner of my eye I could see my husband face turn a shade of pink.

So what do you think we did last night? We rented a movie!!!
I know my son will have a very happy wife. Sigh.........

It's time to party!!! The ultimate blog party has begun and I encourage all of you to join in the fun. I can't wait for the opportunities that I'll have to meet other blogger buddies, share and hear all that might be going on in our world or in our homes. I don't have any wine or goodies to share but I might have some cheese. Or should I say that I might have something cheesy to say. That would be like me.

This is my family.

I'll be celebrating my tenth anniversary with my husband this year. He is the love of my life. He's filled me inspiration and help me gain confidence in the way I see myself and the person that God wants me to be. He's a man who makes you want to work hard a try harder because he always wants more. This is not a bad thing people, he motivates me. He always wants to be a better husband, father, friend, employee, what ever he focuses on.

And then theres my son. Jadden is a 10 year old, fun loving guy. I couldn't really say that his interests are focused on just one thing. It's a wide stretch from hockey to science and every thing in between. Right now he's just trying to survive. Hockey's done and soccer's in a couple of months and he can't wait for school to be done.

Now for me, I'm a stay at home mom. Thinking about getting a job in the future but I'm very comfortable in my safe home. I help my father out on his dairy farm during the summer months and spend the rest of my time in my gardens and providing my family with a great home atmosphere, clean cloths and what ever else they might need. I'm a child of God and aim for my son to know the true love of Christ and His amazing gifts.

What I love:

1) Refinishing furniture

2) Studying Gods word

3) Gardening

4) Music that inspires me. (Love to attach myself to the lyrics)

5) My husband and son

6) Spending time with my friends and family.

7) Dreaming about decorating my home

8) The fact that I live less then a 1/4 mile away from most of my immediate family.

9) My home and my country yard

10) Knitting through the winter months

11) Singing

12) Watching my son and my husband play sports

13) Cheese cake smothered in caramel sauce

14) Camping with my husbands family

15) Watching my family grow in their faith and love God

I hope you all enjoy this post. I hope to meet a lot of new people so make sure to leave a comment so I know where to find you.

Biggest Loser

I've found my all time favorite show. The Biggest Loser had given me so much inspiration so I decided to get involved in The Biggest Loser League!!!

It's a free on line program that gives you challenges through out the week and it gives you the opportunity to become a team member and get to know new people dealing with the same problems I struggle with. The worst issue I have is just pure laziness. I now get to view my progress through percentages of how close I am to my goal weight, my BMI and charts to record my food in take and measurements.

I started working on loosing some of my weight as soon as I started watching this show so I'm already 52% away from my goal weight. I don't know how dedicated I will be able to be with this whole thing. Theres a lot of documenting to do daily(Totally not my thing). My biggest reason to join was the support from others and extra healthy tips that I can use.

Check it out if your interested.

A New Season

No, I know it's not spring yet but I see that a new season has begun in my home.
My son is not getting younger, no matter how badly I would like that to happen. We are starting to see the signs of puberty so my husband and I have decided that it's time to look at what we need to do to prepare our preteen for his future.
As we started talking about the expected up and coming events, I realized that this is going to be harder then bringing a new born home from the hospital. Needless to say, I was seventeen when I brought my son home. You would think that nothing could be harder than that, but I'm starting to think that that was a breeze compared to this.
We are already starting with the out bursts of tears for no reason at all. "Might I ask, is that not what girls do???" Of course, this only happens when he's over tired. So what do I do now, start an earlier bed time? It feels like time is moving backwards.
We have talked the puberty talk and we've talked the sex talk, so we don't need to worry about that, but it's the hormones that are taking me for a loop.
I know that their taking my poor son for a loop as well so we are going to try to do our best.
After much discussion and prayer, my husband and I have realized that this is the time. This is the time in my son's life that will impact him as an adult. Good or bad. When he becomes an adult his memories of life will be on these very years. They can make a impact on him in what he does and what we do. Talk about pressure!
We want him to enjoy these years and treasure them that he will want the same kind of life for his family. We want him to know where to go to find strength. We want him to become independent, responsible, respectful, joyful and know where the best place for him would be to find the love of his life. I could go on and on about all these big responsibilities. But I'm sure that it would never end.
This new season is going to be fun and stressful. This new season wont only be about him but us too. I can already see that we are growing from this knowledge and it gets me excited to see what God has planned for our life. I know there are many of you women that are in the same season as I am in. I'm thinking of you now and sending out a prayer for you all, because this is for our future.

MARTEN

I have a new friend. Someone who might be a little dangerous but very entertaining. He/She jumps from tree to tree in the most aerobatic moves and takes care of all those creatures that I would rather live with out. Like mice and squirrels. Not that squirrels are all that bad, but they love to wiggle into the crawl spaces of our house and they make a racket and pull out all of our isolation. So at this very moment, this guy is my friend.

This is a Marten, he is in the family of wolverines, mink's and weasels. EEEeeek... I don't like the sound of a wolverine. This guy should be out in British Columbia but has now made a home on our yard. So we will enjoy him/her for as long as we can.

We just need to be very careful when we let our dog out because this guy is very interested in her. "Not a good thing"

I've seen this thing kill and carry a squirrel the same size as him up a tree. And it's pretty vicious.

Another one

I'm yet another auntie. My Brother and Sister-in-law had a little boy early this morning. I can't believe it. Two boys in 24 hours. We are so excited!

I'm a new Auntie

I'm proud to announce that I have a new nephew. He was born at 8:45 this morning. Nehemiah Robert Allan to Norm and Rose, Sheldon's Bro and sis-in-law. He was named after two of his uncle's. My husband included.
He has three older brothers waiting for him at home. My sister-in-law will be well protected with all her big boy's in her house. I can't wait to see him.

The Carillon

I made it into the local news paper with the stylish hair I had on the 26th. You can see picture's on my previous post.
My son was also in the paper with his mohawk.
We are just popular people around here. lol...
All you need to do is be a little crazy and stand out and you can get known by everyone.
Not that it's going to make a difference in my life, most of the people (including me) call the local paper the "Careless News."
Have a great weekend everyone!

Years ago I could go to sleep at 1:00am or 2:00am and get up for the morning milking at 5:00am.
This is where I have realized that I am getting older. There is no way that would swing around here anymore.
My husband and I went to bed at 12:30 Sunday night and I still feel like I can't recover from the lack of sleep. It's doesn't help that I'm trying to cut my coffee down either.
Does anyone have a special trick or secret for me?
I need energy!!!

Team Spirit

Today was all about "Hockey Spirit" for the Mitchell Mohawks!
A bunch of the kids in Jadden's team got Mohawks, painted their hair blue for provincials and got into the team spirit with the football look.

Some of the parents got involved and styled their hair like mohawks and painted their faces.
Kinda hard to do with long hair but I did my best.

We had a blast and I'll have to say that my son's team had great looking fans.

My cool boy showing off his new "due"
Very Cool!!!!

I'm babbling...

When you've been gone for a week, it seems like it takes a life time to catch up. I've been home a week now and I have been cleaning and cleaning and cleaning around that clock. I have vacuumed, done laundry, washed wall's, washed floors, and shampooed carpet's and my house still feels like it's out of control. I clean one room and as soon as I turn around it's a mess. I'm not cleaning up after toddlers tho, it's two grown men, a ten year old boy, a dog and myself. You would think that they would have learnt how to clean up after them selves by now. Oh ya, do I mention that my DOG has had the flu all week??? Good thing I still have the carpet shampooer. "I'm sorry I mentioned that."
My goal was to have the house work done by Tuesday and spend the rest of the week on school work and my daily house hold duties. I guess I was dreaming. Or maybe I'm just too fussy. That could very well be.
As I chuckle to myself about this idiotic post I'm looking around and realizing that it will only take me and hour and my house will be the best it can be, the guy's really aren't that bad, and then I just have to think about getting groceries. That's actually not that bad for a Friday.
Now the question is, do I delete this whole post or do I share my jibber jabber with all of you? I know I'll look like a fool but I think I'll sacrifice my pride so you can all have a laugh.
I really think this helped, jabbering on and on about useless information, because I feel a whole lot better and I'm ready to tackle that last bit of house cleaning.
I wish you all a great weekend.

Cuba

I guess it's about time I inform you on our trip to Cuba.
I'm sorry I took so long to write. We headed straight to my son's hockey tournament which lasted the whole weekend and I spent yesterday unpacking, doing laundry and cleaning.

Our trip was filled with excitement, laughter and many great memories. We arrived on one of the coldest days they had in the past week, +29, but thankfully that cold spell only lasted a day and we enjoyed the warmer weather, +30-32.
sorry, I had to rub it in your face.

Every morning we were on the beach and most afternoons we headed back to the pool. The kids did amazing through out the whole trip, very little complaining and most of them did well with the different food. All the children had an opportunity to go to Kids Club every day, giving mom and dad a two hour break. woohoo!!! They went to feed the fish on a paddle boat, they went snorkeling, and they went to look for fossil on the beach. My son has nothing but great things to say about our trip. It only worries me that we wont get to go on our own trips anymore. Good thing I'm still the parent.
We never left the resort because the closest town was an hour away and the roads weren't the greatest. But to our surprise, we never ran out of things to do.
The biggest highlight for me was that we were able to give gifts to the local people. Some of the people were left with nothing after the hurricane, but we could see that they were not forgotten because there were many people giving them gifts, clothes and helping them with their shelters.

This was a trip I wont ever forget. We travel with an amazing family (Conrad and Louise) and gave Jadden a chance to see a totally different world. I hope we will have many more opportunities to go on trips like this with our whole family.

I don't have a lot of pictures to share with you here but you can go take a look on facebook any time. Just look for "Candy D"

Good bye cold snowy winter.

Hello hot sandy Cuba.
15 hours and counting till we take off to Cuba. I'm busy packing and doing last minute chores around the house.
My son is so pumped about leaving today that he was trying to skip school to "help me pack." Funny boy, I can only imagine what that would have been like.
Well there will be no post's for the next week so I wish you all a great week.
(P.S. I heard it should be getting warmer here in Manitoba. That would be nice for all who need a break from this nasty cold weather.

Small house, Big heart!

I have had a big problem with hosting parties during the winter months because I wanted my house to be perfect and I wanted to go way out of my way to make everyone's stay great. That's not a reality to make it perfect in a 850sqft. living space. But I've noticed that it's cozy and people always make themselves at home.
I have had a great holiday season having guests over at my house much more than I usually do and I notice that I have a lot more great memories from me getting over myself. And as far as I know, my guest's have enjoyed their visit every time. So yes, I've been cheating myself!!! I used to count down the winter months because we have a great big yard to visit with friends through the summer months, but I don't think that I'll have to keep counting. No matter how big, small, stylish or cluttered, I can always make room for my friends. (((Cheesy...)))
Man it's great when I learn something new!

This is another picture I took from our weekend snow fall.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
"I just heard that there's more snow on it's way."

Talk about a lot of snow.
15 cm
It's absolutely beautiful.
This is my front yard and if you take a close look at the tree's, you can see that there's almost a foot of snow on some of those poor branch's.