Our Hearts Desire

What is the core of a woman's heart? What are her desires? What did women long for as little girls? What do we still long for as women?



This is where we, as women have to look deep into our hearts. God has set within you a femininity that is powerful and tender, fierce and alluring. And for some reason we have been misunderstood.



When girls move into womanhood, the first response would sooner be humiliation than excitement. I had three older bothers to live up to. I had to either act like them, or serve them. My choice was obvious, I acted like them. So needless to say that when my womanhood popped up from behind the curtain, I was humiliated. My feelings and emotions stayed hidden deep down in my soul. Feeling as though they were wrong and I had to "suck it up." Feelings I still struggle with to this very day.


God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.Gen. 1:27

This is a piece of scripture that has always kept me on my toes. I've always been searching for answers. Wanting to know why God created me. Who I needed to be and why I was so messed up. I know I'm not alone in this roller coaster and that's why I've chosen to share, and enlighten you on God's truth.

...But for Adam, no suitable helper was found. So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. Gen. 2:20-22

Eve was the crescendo. Like a work of art. Creation being built up until the grand finally. "WOMEN." There is not a doubt in my mind that Eve was the crown of creation. The world was not complete until he made his beautiful masterpiece. There must be something significant that was missing that he had to place us into his creation.

Oh, and there was! His desires of his heart are the things he needed us to carry. That was the image God wanted us to bear. Our hearts were made in reflection of God's own heart.

So now you tell me. Is God the romantic type? Was he longing for the Israelites to love him? Does he long for us to pursue him? Is he full of love and kindness? Did he sacrifice everything for us?

Now you tell me what gets your heart pumping? I can assure you that there will be a resemblance.

Ava

This is our new little member of the family.
Ava!

Spring

What brings me joy???
SPRING!
I love to watch my plants (Babies) peek through the ground for the first time.

Clean up the yard from the mess the winter season left behind.
I love to start up the mower for the first time and usually mark it on my calender so I can compare it to the following year. After I've mowed my lawn, It usually takes a couple of day's and it becomes a beautiful gleaming green lawn.
I can finally bring out all my Adirondack chairs and enjoy the warmer evenings outside with my family.
The first bonfire with family or friends is something I like to mark down on the calender as well.
The deer's come out on to my yard to eat the left over acorns.
The rabbits coats turn back to their grayish brown color. Sometimes I even get the chance to see the new baby bunnies hoping around on my yard.
I love to watch the trees bud and eventually pop out their leaves.
The first thunderstorm always gives me goosebumps but brings a sign that spring is really here.

AND TODAY, IN THE POURING RAIN, MY FIRST HUMMING BIRD CAME TO FEED FROM MY FEEDER!!!!!!!!!
This is the most magical time for me. These birds have become my true joy through out the summer.
And for most of you readers, you already know how much I love them so I wont go on and on about them, but They are here! WOOOHOOO!!!

Seeing I'm done "my time of rest," It's time to get back into the blogging world. lol...
Sorry it's been so long.


The big question thats been playing and re-playing in my head has been, "Do you have unforgiveness in your heart?"
HMMMMmmm...
Do I need to think long and hard on this one? No. ((Shamefully))
There were just some issues in my life that I didn't feel needed attention.
God kept bringing these people to my mind. "You need to go see them." "You need to go make everything right or you wont be able to move on."
My argument with God grew and grew, but I was not going to do it. I thought to myself that I could make myself move on and I could do it no matter what God told me. I reassure you, this was all done unconsciously. lol
But then, during one of my classes, I read words that stung like a bee.
GOD WILL NOT REPEAT HIMSELF IF YOU UNDERSTOOD HIM THE FIRST TIME!!!
Who was I arguing with? I understood Him the first time, and now I've been wasting my time arguing with myself. ((if your like me, picturing this in your head makes it pretty funny))
Seeing I didn't want to look so ridiculous, I sucked up my pride and met with the people God lead me to. It seems like when I'm done dealing with one problem, another person pops into my head. So it looks like I'll be pretty busy for the next while.
This has been a very humbling experience, and I feel like I've lost 50 pounds. Woohoo!!! It's amazing what unforgiveness can do to you.
I also read that scientist's studies have shown, they have found that 70% of illnesses and depression come from the thoughts in your mind, anger, unforgiveness, loneliness, and the list goes on and on.
Sounds like we could all find a great health boost by just watching what we are thinking.

Manly Advise

Last night my husband and I were driving my son to his sleep over party and we were discussing what we might do for the evening. We wanted to make it special, take advantage of the fact that we were alone!!! But some day's it's hard to come up with something to do when your just too tired to move, so we were both stumped.
As my husband was himming and haaing my son interrupted him and gave him some manly advise.
REMEMBER, HE'S 10!
"Dad, Why don't you go get a romantic movie and make some popcorn."
We were so stumped by his remark that we didn't know what to say. I think the silence made him think that he had an opportunity to go on.
"Dad, sometimes I sit through moms romantic movie just to practice and get used to what I'll need to do when I have a wife."
ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What do you say to that??? I turned to applaud my son and through the corner of my eye I could see my husband face turn a shade of pink.

So what do you think we did last night? We rented a movie!!!
I know my son will have a very happy wife. Sigh.........

It's time to party!!! The ultimate blog party has begun and I encourage all of you to join in the fun. I can't wait for the opportunities that I'll have to meet other blogger buddies, share and hear all that might be going on in our world or in our homes. I don't have any wine or goodies to share but I might have some cheese. Or should I say that I might have something cheesy to say. That would be like me.

This is my family.

I'll be celebrating my tenth anniversary with my husband this year. He is the love of my life. He's filled me inspiration and help me gain confidence in the way I see myself and the person that God wants me to be. He's a man who makes you want to work hard a try harder because he always wants more. This is not a bad thing people, he motivates me. He always wants to be a better husband, father, friend, employee, what ever he focuses on.

And then theres my son. Jadden is a 10 year old, fun loving guy. I couldn't really say that his interests are focused on just one thing. It's a wide stretch from hockey to science and every thing in between. Right now he's just trying to survive. Hockey's done and soccer's in a couple of months and he can't wait for school to be done.

Now for me, I'm a stay at home mom. Thinking about getting a job in the future but I'm very comfortable in my safe home. I help my father out on his dairy farm during the summer months and spend the rest of my time in my gardens and providing my family with a great home atmosphere, clean cloths and what ever else they might need. I'm a child of God and aim for my son to know the true love of Christ and His amazing gifts.

What I love:

1) Refinishing furniture

2) Studying Gods word

3) Gardening

4) Music that inspires me. (Love to attach myself to the lyrics)

5) My husband and son

6) Spending time with my friends and family.

7) Dreaming about decorating my home

8) The fact that I live less then a 1/4 mile away from most of my immediate family.

9) My home and my country yard

10) Knitting through the winter months

11) Singing

12) Watching my son and my husband play sports

13) Cheese cake smothered in caramel sauce

14) Camping with my husbands family

15) Watching my family grow in their faith and love God

I hope you all enjoy this post. I hope to meet a lot of new people so make sure to leave a comment so I know where to find you.

Biggest Loser

I've found my all time favorite show. The Biggest Loser had given me so much inspiration so I decided to get involved in The Biggest Loser League!!!

It's a free on line program that gives you challenges through out the week and it gives you the opportunity to become a team member and get to know new people dealing with the same problems I struggle with. The worst issue I have is just pure laziness. I now get to view my progress through percentages of how close I am to my goal weight, my BMI and charts to record my food in take and measurements.

I started working on loosing some of my weight as soon as I started watching this show so I'm already 52% away from my goal weight. I don't know how dedicated I will be able to be with this whole thing. Theres a lot of documenting to do daily(Totally not my thing). My biggest reason to join was the support from others and extra healthy tips that I can use.

Check it out if your interested.