I know I haven't posted in a long time, You've all probably stop reading because of it, but I have a prayer request.
Sheldon is going in for an ultrasound this coming Thursday. We are both worried and we are both praying that it will be clear enough that the doctors can see whats wrong with Sheldon. We are totally leaving it in Gods hands and we understand that we have no control of the out come. We just need peace of mind and the strength.
Thank you for all your prayers and God Bless.

Megal pups

What a crazy day...
Thursday morning I picked Sheldon up from the hospital. When I got him home and all settled in, our dog went into labor. I had never helped a dog give birth before but I did my best. She was six day's early (this would be the same as a woman being six weeks early) I wasn't prepared and it came really fast. Three puppies came out breech and in their sacks. Thank God we were there. We would have had three still born if it wasn't for us. Sheldon got really worn out and after three hours of sitting with my dog, I was tired.
We have Three females and two males. They are all doing well and mama too.

Surgery Day has come and gone.
It was a hard day, something that we hadn't expected, but God surely had a hand in it. Sheldon went in for a hernia surgery and came out with his appendix removed. The surgeon found that Sheldon's appendix was swollen and infected and removed it a soon a possible. The surgeon also found two hernia's and said that we'll have to schedule another surgery to fix them as soon as he's healed from this surgery. So... we have another surgery to look forward to. I can't say that we're looking forward to it, but what are you going to do?
Sheldon is doing very well. He's so thankful that this was all found and taken care of. He's kinda dreading another surgery, but he knows that it needs to be done. He spent one night in the hospital, but know he's at home resting. We are looking forward to a fast recovery and we thank you all for your prayers.
This is an amazing man... He's never thinking about himself, only about others. Is he worrying about himself right now? No... He's more concerned that I wont get too tired. I am tired, but I enjoy taking care of him.
He's a really good patient.

Sheldon's surgery day is coming closer. It's less then a week away, and I'm trying to get the house in check and change my work schedule that I can be there for him when the time comes.
We are only looking forward to the time when he's all healed up. We're not in control of our lives at this point, and it will be great to regain our control. Or at least know the unknown...
I love, love, love this man and I ask you all to pray for him.
Thank-you in advance.
I cherish you all.

every day of life

What's this life I'm searching for?
I can't really say what my expectations are in life, other then happiness, peace, guidance and love. I'm trying to live a better life every day. This brings questions, fears, joy and relief to my life. I know my life will never stop changing. I know the trials and defeats are ahead. But when?
Letting God take over my life and hold me accountable for every minute of my day solves my problems. And then in between the minutes, I have seconds of doubt. Fear can take of my confidence and hold me prisoner.
"Will my life long dreams ever happen?"
"Why am I sitting here day in and day out knitting into my dreams?"
"Will I be able to be strong enough to follow through in the hard times?"
As I write, God is speaking to me. "Follow me and I will give you what you need."
As I sit for a while and ponder on his words, I feel relief...
With God's freedom he has given me.
My choices to follow through only inspire me to keep pushing through. What I've accomplished at the end of the day, gives me a peace of mind. My failures push me to try harder tomorrow.
I will live to give God praise. God gives me hope and he gives me strength.
He has the control, and I will live with that in mind.
I will praise God for every day of life he blesses me and my loved ones with.

Fall

I've always said that I haven't enjoyed fall much. I can't stand all the leaves dieing and falling off the trees. It takes a matter of a week and the tree's start to change color and they loose their leaves. I know it's not like that every were, but that's all we get. I've always said, it reminds me of death.
This weekend was a different story for me. As our family headed out to the bush for our annual fall hayride, I saw this beautiful bush growing outside of my Grandmothers house. The colors were so rich and the bush was still full of leaves. I don't think my camera could have snapped fast enough. The sun was like a spot light on these leaves. It shone just as bright as the sun. Not only had I found this bush, but my brother was in there right along side of me, catching it's beautiful hue with his camera. This is a picture I want to frame, so I can see these colors every day.
I can use it as a reminder, that God has made everything beautiful. Even fall, when the leaves start to fall to the ground.

Fight SBS

I wish I could just send all of my troubles and worries away. I'm so over whelmed...
As you've noticed, I have a big heart for baby Kaleb who is fighting SBS. I've posted a couple of stories about him in the past while. And my love has grown for this family and for this poor little boy. God has in stored it in my heart to try to help. I have ideas that God has told me to do, but I get so over whelmed by it all. How can I possibly help children that are fighting SBS. I've been looking on line for hint's and tips that Canada is doing something about SBS, but I am found at a loss. There is tons in the States, but it doesn't help delete the many chances a child has to be shaken here in Manitoba. So sad...
And of course... I'm trying to do this alone, so it feels like a huge project.
Right now I'm spending time in prayer, asking God to lead me. All I'm getting is anxious and I'm taking it out on the people around me. "Sorry Babe"
I'm prodding and searching, trying to figure out what to do. Hopefully with in a couple of years I can make a difference. I can find what God wants me to do and help the prevent SBS from ever happening.

Update...

My how time has passed... I have found that today I had a break to reflect and share a little with you.
I have asked for prayer for my sexy man in the past two weeks, and I felt that I should give you a little update. We finally can take another step. I can't say that it will take us anywhere, but I'm sure it will be in the forward direction. lol...
Sheldon is slatted for surgery on November the seventh. If you could pray for the surgeons working on him, a fast recovery and an answer to all his pain, it would be much appreciated. We were told at first, that it was a hernia, but the surgeon didn't think that that was the problem. So we are going into this very blind and a little uneasy.

More on a positive note...
In time's of trouble, you find yourself consumed in time with God. I have found such peace of mind when I take time to sit with God in my yellow chair. I can feel his presence. I find scripture that encourages me, he has given me goals for tomorrow and the days that follow.
Thanks for all of you who have been sending out prayers for us.

Kaleb

If you haven't watched my post on Kaleb, I encourage you to do it before you read further. This family is suffering for putting their trust in a babysitter. Kaleb had SBS. "Shaken Baby Syndrome". Kaleb has suffered many surgeries and his out look doesn't look good. The doctors said that if he makes it through this fight, he will grow up with many disabilities including, being blind, not being able to hear, talk or communicate. He will be a vegetable for the rest of his life. He wont even be able to hold up his head. How in the world could someone do this. This poor boy is left with a full life time of fighting for his life. My heart goes out to them all.
I had this sent to me a month ago and this family has been in my prayers ever since. Please join me in my prayers. These parents have hope, and courage. They know that God can create a miracle in this little baby and heal him completely. Lets join them in the walk with their son and send a prayer out to God. It's the least we could do.

Kaleb Schwade Fighting

Hockey

Some day's I think I'm a little crazy. I got an invite to join a women's hockey team. It's a bunch of women that can't skate at all. To funny... I haven't skated in 12 years, so I figured that this would be a lot of fun. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH.... What am I doing??? I can't believe that I'm doing this.
We have a coach. She is 13 lol... It's going to be great. A little exercise and a lot of laughs. I might need to wear depends. lol...

If anyone it in my area and wants to come out and have some fun, let me know.
So far, their are 23 women and we would love to have more.
MEN AND CHILDREN ARE NOT ALOUD TO COME WATCH US UNTIL CHRISTMAS.

We'll decide if we want visitors after that. We are not playing against any other teams. So there is nothing to worry about.
I'm looking forward to it.

And yes, I got pink gloves. I never got an opportunity when I was playing Rinngette, so why not now? lol...

A girls got to look good out there. If it wont be my skating, It will be my gear.

Prayer

Look at my cute man... yes, he is singing.
Yesterday, my life as I know it, flashed before my eye's. I know I really shouldn't have, but I thought about how my life would be with out Sheldon in it. I cried and cried... Sheldon and I had just celebrated our eight wedding anniversary this week and now this was all I could think of. Sheldon found a lump. I didn't want to think of the worse, but I couldn't stop myself. The fear of cancer completely consumed me. The couple of hours that it took to get through the morning felt like a full year.
Thankfully we were told that it was a hernia. It still means that he'll be having surgery shortly, but it's something that the doctors can fix. The next couple of weeks are at a standstill for us and we'll need a lot of prayer for Sheldon's healing. Sheldon has been in a lot of pain so I ask you for prayer in that as well.
Thanks for your support and God Bless.

September 25th was eight years since our wedding day, yesterday we spent the evening looking back at our life. We saw our goals that have been achieved and such a big difference in our friendships and family.
In our journal, we wrote down the things that we have conquered:
- I have found peace in not being able to have more children.
- Sheldon have learnt how to understand me and all of my unique personalities.
- We have found ways to support each other emotionally.
- I have overcome my jealousy over Sheldon (yes, I've been Jealous. He's very successful)
- I have come over a lot of pain from my childhood, and learnt how to deal with my problems.
- Sheldon has put a lot of faith into the Lord. Instead of holding everything on his own shoulders.
- Sheldon has found great success in his business and put it all into Gods hands.
- We have filtered out all our bad relationships, there where a lot of friendships holding us down and putting stress on the both of us.
- We have found a great church that suits the whole family. It has helped us grow and become very real in our own skin.

After we looked at this list and found out that we have come a lot further then we had thought, we made a short list of goals for ourselves:
- We want to find our BEST LIFE through our relationships, our Church, our work and our family. (That's a big one)
- We want to grow together in prayer and find Gods plan for us, NOT ours.
- We want to celebrate each day. We want be thankful through our hard and hurtful times and through the Big and little blessing that are given to us every day.
- Seeing our Cell group has lost touch, we want to find a new Cell group. It helps both me and Sheldon be real people.
- We want to be the best parents we can be. We want to be able to support Jadden through his challenges in life, and we want to be there to celebrate with him through the good times.
- We want to find our MISSION. Weather it be at home, in our Church, in our local community or out of the country. God has a mission for everyone, so we are going out of our way to find it.

It was a great time. Looking into our lives together has made me feel very connected to Sheldon. I can hardly wait to spend the rest of my life with him.
Happy Anniversary Sheldon...

Sioux Narrows...
What a great day. Jadden did his Hallelujah dance for us as we sat out on the water. We sat out on the water all day and the fish never stopped biting. It was a three hour drive, but worth every minute.

We met my brother Mike, and his wife, Brenda(and her family) at the lake for a break from Pinawa. We saw a ton of bears at the local garbage dump and visited a bunch of little shops in town. what a great little place... We want to go back as soon as possible.

Well I'm off on Holidays, just relaxing and enjoying my time. I have a lot of knitting to do. I have a sale coming up in November, so I have a lot to get done.
It's really cold out here. I was hoping for better weather that we could go out on the water. Maybe I should have brought my winter jacket. LOL...
I'll keep posting as the week goes on. Hope you are all enjoying the last bit of summer.

Jadden's friends from camp

Jadden, Colton and Travis.
The Mitchell boy's. These three boy's all play hockey together all winter and share the same school. It was neat that they could go to camp together as well.
Bailey, Jadden and Colton.
Bailey plays against the boys in the real hockey world, but here at camp, they became great friends.
It was so nice that Jadden had some great friends to rely on. He had a really hard time, but these boy's stuck to his side. Thanks boy's.

He's Home

My sweet boy has finally come home. I'm so happy this week is over. I knew it would be hard, but not the way it had happened (read my last blog).
He found some great friends and he's hoping to stay in contact with them. I can hardly wait to get his pictures developed, he has taken so much pride in the pictures he had taken at camp.

Jadden and his buddy Colton getting on the bus to head back to camp after hockey.
He's coming in to stop the forward. He really enjoyed his day skating today, because he's knows he's going home. It was great to see how much he had improved. I guess five hours of hockey every day could do the. lol
Saying good bye to his Friends at camp.

What a week

An update for you...
We took off last night to pick up Jadden from camp. He was having a hard time, and letting a lot of the kids down. So we figured we would get Jadden out of their hair that the kids could enjoy the rest of the week.
Well, On our way there, after giving it much thought we figured we'd try to talk and pray with him and maybe it would be alright. Didn't happen... so seeing he had the trouble at Hockey and not the actual Bible camp, we figured we would come for hockey the next day, just to shorten his week. It was at nine o'clock, so e could go home and get our work done after that. We spent the night at Sheldons Brother and sister-in-laws house half and hour from camp) and headed off to hockey for nine o'clock this morning. When we got there, the schedule said that his hockey started at three forty five... Sooooo
What do we do now... We told Jade we would be there, so we can't go back on our promise. We headed off to Winkler for breakfast and shopping at wal-mart. That only took up three hours... So we bummed the day away.
Finally when we got to watch Jadden play hockey. It was great... He had a good attitude and was playing really hard. We thought that we had finally done the right thing.
Not really...
By the time Jadden was half way through his last session, he brook down. He realized that he would have to go through another night with out us. NO WAY was he going to give up on us now, we had spent a whole day away from work just to get him through camp. WHAT DO WE DO?......
So I put my foot down. There was no way he was coming home now. We talked and talked and wiped his tears. We told him it would be alright and we sent him on his way. He did leave fighting tears, but he new it was time to be strong and have a good time. We got smiles and big hugs, and I can hardly wait to get him home tomorrow.
So our week of being alone and making the best of it didn't happen the way we had planed. We went through a lot of heart ache and I'm hoping he wont want to got to camp next year. I can't take a whole week off just to go pity my poor baby. was I sad, Yes I cried like a baby. But it comes to a point when you have to put your foot down and show your child is boss. I can hardly wait to get this week over with. I'm tired and I want to go to bed, but I have to milk my cows.

To Be A Mother

Why does it hurt so bad to be a mother.
I've been praying for Jadden this whole week while he's been at camp, hoping that he's been have a good time and being strong. I know that he's been missing us, but I was hoping that he could look past it and enjoy his time at camp.
I just got a phone call from the Bible camp and Jadden has been crying a lot. Apparently he's fine at camp itself. But when he's at the rink, he crys the whole time and wants to come home. So I don't think he has participated in any of the hockey events. I'm really lost as to make a decision on what to do. Should I go pick him up? Should I try to talk to him?(Then he'll want to come home right aways) I'm so lost... Soooo lost.
I'm sitting here on pin's and needles waiting for a call back from camp to make our decision, but I don't have a clue on what to do. I don't know what to say to that camp counselor. I don't know what the answer should be. Please pray for me and Sheldon. We feel very lost.

Yes it's only been a day and a half, but I do feel different with Sheldon having our alone time. We have taken time out for ourselves and we do anything that we feel like doing at any time. I think the feeling of being newlyweds for the first time in almost eight years is mutual.
I love taking the time out to talk with Sheldon. We have no interruptions and our talks have become very deep, like never before. I actually know what Sheldon is feeling and planning for his life goals. He has time to open up to me and ask for help or prayer and I have had time to let Sheldon know were I stand in life. We have been sharing our life goals and dreams. For some funny reason we have been heading in the same direction with out discussing it, but it's now a comfort to know that we are on the same page. I can now see were Sheldon needs prayer and support. It makes me feel so whole. It feels like I have a purpose in our marriage, more then just making supper and cleaning the house. I love the moment I'm in right now. I just wish we could be living this week without any distractions, like work.
Even though it has been difficult to let Jadden go away for a week, I can see that this was a plan God made for our marriage to become stronger then ever before. I can only imagine how much Jadden is changing as he's experiencing himself in a totally different way. I can hardly wait for all the stories that he'll have to share with us. I do miss him terribly but I also feel that this is the best thing that could have happened to us at this point in our lives.

A week alone

Well the dreaded day of taking Jadden to camp has passed. Now all I have to do is try to keep myself busy that I don't think of him to much. I know he's having a blast, so that's whats helping me get through today. He was pumped to be at camp. This was his first time, can you tell. LOL...
Sheldon and I have decided to take this chance to spend quality time together. We've never spent a whole week alone. I'm excited to see what the week brings. We feel like newlyweds... We really don't know what that feels like, seeing Jadden was a year old when we got married. I'm almost nervous. It could go really bad...lol...
No, I think that this week will be life altering for all of us.
I can hardly wait to get the show on the road.

Gods been speaking again

Some day's I can't fathom all the beauty that God has created. This sun set put me into a speechless aw as we where driving down the high way.
Looking at this sunset helps me remember how much God Love's me for the person I am. He loves my hair, my WEIGHT, he loves me when I'm tired and not looking so great, and when I've done something against his will. He loves me this much because he created me, just like this sunset. How could I hate something that I have created. When I look at my son a realize how much my God loves me.
Isn't it amazing how God can us an ordinary time like driving down a high way to speak to us?

What do you do when it's hot?

Well yes, here you see it all. This is my Dad in the most flattering way possible.
Instead of complaining about the heat, we find something to joke about. Our body's where the joke of the day. "Not really, just for the photo shoot."
I love taking picture with my Dad because it doesn't happen very often. He's a great man with the best sense of humor ever. It can never be a serious picture, "I'm to blame for that". He's a funny man and I can get him to do some of the funniest things in this world. This for instance is one of them. LOL...

Congrats

Congratulations Steve and Stacey.
You two make a great couple.
I had a great time just hanging out at the beach. Now that's a way to have a wedding... No ceremony, just food and fun at the park. We were fishing, swimming, playing ball and sweating our butts off.
Stacey was so beautiful...

The Weekend

Friday we figured we would start our weekend and head out to the lake a day early. We spent Friday night around the lake with some bikes from the resort. There where so many deer out and about. I was almost afraid I would hit them. I think the deer would win if it ever came to comparing. Jadden had a really hard time biking seeing he had a very small bike. We had such a great time just relaxing and enjoying each others company.

Saturday, we felt that we would get a head start to our day and we went to the Pinowa Dam before we went to my Cousins wedding. What an interesting place. We have found out that we haven't seen half of our Provence that we live in, so we've decided to take every chance that we have to go and explore the areas around us for the rest of the summer. I'm pumped about it. I feel like not only will we discover a lot, but Jadden will get to know our Provence in a completely different way then we did. We'll be learning together. Won't that be neat?
This summer has already been such an adventure for us and we have never spent this much together as a family. We are really enjoying it. For last couple of years we have been so busy during our free time with our paintball field. Seeing it's five years now, we have it all under control and we have made sacrifices to get our family some time together. I feel like God has totally helped us through this time of drought. I'm so thankful.

Way To Go John...

Woo Hoo... We had a blast at the John Fogerty concert. Sheldon and I went out on a date and rocked the house. John really knows how to put on a great show. He sang for two hours strait with one sip of water. We thought it had only been an hour when he finally sang his last song. Jim Cuddy started it off... "the greatest artist there ever was" He was a big inspiration to go in the first place. We will never miss a Blue Rodeo of Jim Cuddy concert. This is a night I will remember for a life time. To bad you wern't there.
And we look pretty good too. LOL...