every day of life

What's this life I'm searching for?
I can't really say what my expectations are in life, other then happiness, peace, guidance and love. I'm trying to live a better life every day. This brings questions, fears, joy and relief to my life. I know my life will never stop changing. I know the trials and defeats are ahead. But when?
Letting God take over my life and hold me accountable for every minute of my day solves my problems. And then in between the minutes, I have seconds of doubt. Fear can take of my confidence and hold me prisoner.
"Will my life long dreams ever happen?"
"Why am I sitting here day in and day out knitting into my dreams?"
"Will I be able to be strong enough to follow through in the hard times?"
As I write, God is speaking to me. "Follow me and I will give you what you need."
As I sit for a while and ponder on his words, I feel relief...
With God's freedom he has given me.
My choices to follow through only inspire me to keep pushing through. What I've accomplished at the end of the day, gives me a peace of mind. My failures push me to try harder tomorrow.
I will live to give God praise. God gives me hope and he gives me strength.
He has the control, and I will live with that in mind.
I will praise God for every day of life he blesses me and my loved ones with.

Fall

I've always said that I haven't enjoyed fall much. I can't stand all the leaves dieing and falling off the trees. It takes a matter of a week and the tree's start to change color and they loose their leaves. I know it's not like that every were, but that's all we get. I've always said, it reminds me of death.
This weekend was a different story for me. As our family headed out to the bush for our annual fall hayride, I saw this beautiful bush growing outside of my Grandmothers house. The colors were so rich and the bush was still full of leaves. I don't think my camera could have snapped fast enough. The sun was like a spot light on these leaves. It shone just as bright as the sun. Not only had I found this bush, but my brother was in there right along side of me, catching it's beautiful hue with his camera. This is a picture I want to frame, so I can see these colors every day.
I can use it as a reminder, that God has made everything beautiful. Even fall, when the leaves start to fall to the ground.

Fight SBS

I wish I could just send all of my troubles and worries away. I'm so over whelmed...
As you've noticed, I have a big heart for baby Kaleb who is fighting SBS. I've posted a couple of stories about him in the past while. And my love has grown for this family and for this poor little boy. God has in stored it in my heart to try to help. I have ideas that God has told me to do, but I get so over whelmed by it all. How can I possibly help children that are fighting SBS. I've been looking on line for hint's and tips that Canada is doing something about SBS, but I am found at a loss. There is tons in the States, but it doesn't help delete the many chances a child has to be shaken here in Manitoba. So sad...
And of course... I'm trying to do this alone, so it feels like a huge project.
Right now I'm spending time in prayer, asking God to lead me. All I'm getting is anxious and I'm taking it out on the people around me. "Sorry Babe"
I'm prodding and searching, trying to figure out what to do. Hopefully with in a couple of years I can make a difference. I can find what God wants me to do and help the prevent SBS from ever happening.

Update...

My how time has passed... I have found that today I had a break to reflect and share a little with you.
I have asked for prayer for my sexy man in the past two weeks, and I felt that I should give you a little update. We finally can take another step. I can't say that it will take us anywhere, but I'm sure it will be in the forward direction. lol...
Sheldon is slatted for surgery on November the seventh. If you could pray for the surgeons working on him, a fast recovery and an answer to all his pain, it would be much appreciated. We were told at first, that it was a hernia, but the surgeon didn't think that that was the problem. So we are going into this very blind and a little uneasy.

More on a positive note...
In time's of trouble, you find yourself consumed in time with God. I have found such peace of mind when I take time to sit with God in my yellow chair. I can feel his presence. I find scripture that encourages me, he has given me goals for tomorrow and the days that follow.
Thanks for all of you who have been sending out prayers for us.

Kaleb

If you haven't watched my post on Kaleb, I encourage you to do it before you read further. This family is suffering for putting their trust in a babysitter. Kaleb had SBS. "Shaken Baby Syndrome". Kaleb has suffered many surgeries and his out look doesn't look good. The doctors said that if he makes it through this fight, he will grow up with many disabilities including, being blind, not being able to hear, talk or communicate. He will be a vegetable for the rest of his life. He wont even be able to hold up his head. How in the world could someone do this. This poor boy is left with a full life time of fighting for his life. My heart goes out to them all.
I had this sent to me a month ago and this family has been in my prayers ever since. Please join me in my prayers. These parents have hope, and courage. They know that God can create a miracle in this little baby and heal him completely. Lets join them in the walk with their son and send a prayer out to God. It's the least we could do.

Kaleb Schwade Fighting